Spiritual Awareness

As a child I was always happy go lucky. My third grade teacher used to call me smiley because I always had a smile on my face. As I got older my spirit/soul became disturbed by all the hatred and anger in the world. I remember when my parents would get into a fight and it affected me more than them. I wondered why someone who you loved would ever say or do something to hurt you. I would get so angry and want to run away at times. These days, one does not have to go far to have their spirit disturbed. It seems that the entire world is filled with negative energy. This can cause serious damage to ones spirit.

When I was in college I remember being exhausted after a football game. I was the drum major of the band and had everyone coming up to me all day and asking me questions. At the end of was physically exhausted but more so spiritually exhausted. I had given all of my spiritual energy to those around me. My director told me that I was important to the band because everyone fed off of my energy…I thought he was a little crazy until the first game. Then I understood. It was like nothing I had ever experienced before. That was the first time I recognized the fact that I am as much of a spiritual person as a physical one. I became aware of my own personal energy and how people and actions of others around me would affect it. I had always been sensitive as a child. Most people set up barriers around their spiritual body so they are never really hurt, but they also never let their spirit run free. I have always let my spirit lead me, if you are not areful, it can be ed astray by the wrong people.

I think understanding your true inner spirit is the first step to repairing it. We all are born with certain spiritual traits whether they are related to good things or bad. I have a very creative spirit along with a spirit of compassion for others. I also have a strong spirit of pride, which can be a good thing or bad thing depending on how it is used. Understanding your spiritual sides helps you understand why you react to certain items in your life differently than you would at other times. A person who has a spirit of truth within them, hates a liar…and vice versus.

I have a strong faith in God; I think you know that, I love the “footprints” poem. I have found it to be so true in so many things I do. When I was living in Cali, I had a job that drove my spirit into a dark place. My fun loving nature became dark and angry, I was yelling at friends and fighting with who ever I could. It ruined a relationship because I refused to trust people. All of this was because the negative energy that I was being force to accept at my job. So many facets can affect your spiritual body. Your friends, job, diet, exercise all play apart on not just your physical body, but your spirit and soul as well.

One night in Sacramento I lost it and began yelling at everyone outside of a bar. My tirade continued to a police officer and my friends who were with me. I ended getting out of a cab in the middle Sacramento and decided to walk around a city I have never been in my whole life. I had hit rock bottom. I had to make some changes. I got back to God because he really does offer us true healing, from the inside out. Later that year I went to Jamaica and had one of the most spiritual experiences in my life. I felt reborn as I swam in the ocean & basked in the rays from the sun. I could not believe that I had created so much stress in my life only to realize that the things of this world are only temporary. I realized that true happiness and joy comes from the inside out. All these things that I did as a kids, seemed so foreign to me as an adult. I new I had to return to that happy place one and for all.

I quit my job, apologized to my friends, and started putting myself in around positive people and situations. I cleansed my spirit by prayer and fasting. With a new clean spiritual slate, I began to keep up a “spiritual” diet in order to protect it from all unwanted attributes.
Keeping your spirit clean is important. It is like keeping your room or car clean. If you don’t do it, things pile up, and then the task seems too large before too long. The good news is that God gives us strength to move mountains, so surely we can do a little housekeeping within our soul.